If Only...

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If I could glance behind the dam
To know for once just who I am
What would I love, What would I see
Who do I actually want to be

I could go back to the life I'm from
But then what will I have become
If I could hold all I love in my hand
If I see it maybe I'll understand

If I knew the choices I want to make
I would know what's real and what's fake
I see you around me standing strong
Will I ever stand firm, Will it last long

Who am I and yet who are You
Will I ever know what I want to do
I stand at these crossroads every day
You ask but I don't know what to say

I cannot run without a trace
The hardest choices I'll have to face
If I could know which way to go
If I was someone I truely know

Beck Poulsen
Copyright ©2004 Beck Poulsen

Mirror Of Feelings

I am

I am not

I am cold

I am hot

I remembered

I forgot

Does this poem have a meaning
Does this mirror what I am feeling
Is this life real or am I still dreaming
Is there a purpose in what I'm seeing

Is everything wrong
Is everything right
Is it all pointless
Is it worth the fight
Is it all in the darkness
Is there really light

Beck Poulsen
Copyright ©2005 Beck Poulsen

Tell Me

Dedicated to Sarah

Why should I tell her
She can't understand
The chaos inside me
I'm a heavy metal band
With scars of betrayal
Is my heart in my hand

Why should I speak
She can't really hear
There's beauty in this mess
I'm a car you can't stear
All truth is a maze
Is it pain that I fear

Tell Me
Am I abandoned or am I just weak
Can I still tell her when I can't speak
How do I find what I can't even see

Beck Poulsen
Copyright ©2005 Beck Poulsen